We are moving out of our house today. We loved this house and had thought we would live here for a long time but, as we all know, things can change quickly. After I lived and the baby cured my depression I couldn’t be here anymore. I can feel how depressed I was during my pregnancy and am so aware of how bad I felt before then, even if I thought I was doing okay. A constant reminder of the loneliness that depression spreads throughout a family.
When I went back to work, I would pick Jake up every day from la nanny and go right to my parents’ house until Jeff got home so I didn’t have to spend a lot of time at the house in the quiet. On Saturdays I would take Jake to my parents’ again first thing in the morning and come back after dinner.
I tried going to therapy to get over feeling like sadness was hanging over my head but I really just talked about how good I felt, so grateful for my life and getting to watch Jake grow up, and realized that it’s not me that felt bad, it’s my environment.
It is ok to make big, sudden changes to preserve happiness. When Jeff had doubts about the move I would say “WE ARE MOVING FORWARD WITH OPTIMISM – GET ON BOARD” and sing loudly. He really is a saint ?
We are starting fresh with our new little family in our new little house! It’s weird to think that Jake lived longer in my body than in our Hepburn house.
Thank you for all of your help and support! We are lucky to have family and friends who have our best interest at heart.
Top photo: My mom and me on the day we moved in four years ago.
Bottom photo: Me on the day we move out, today.